Not Happy

Human emotion is powerful weapon to be used against human-beings, it kills a person from inside out. Well, it certainly hasn't killed me yet, but for some reason, I am just not so happy lately. In the past few months, I've got myself into some deep confusions, a paradox I cannot solve alone, and I'm currently seeking for a short cut out of this troublesome situation, trying really hard to find a way to make things go back to the way they were and pretend none of these has ever happened. But I can't. So, God, please, what's it gonna be this time? Shall I surrender?